Friday, December 23, 2005
posted at 12:47 PM
havent been posting as often.
i am pretty moody today actually.
sorry trina.
for not going to J8
its like i plan and then i didnt go.
i dont feel like telling you what exatly happened.
cos i am afraid i will just cry again.
after my mum send me home, i went into my room and cried for an hour.
yep.
have to like comfort myself.
haix.
then half an hour after i stopped crying, i cried for another 1/2hr.
i dunno why exactly i cried.
but it have been almost 5 hours since i cried.
but my eyes are still feeling very swollen.
tmr is a long day for me.
i dunno how i am going to make it for the christmas party.
it just that everything have to clash together.
haix.
i am just freaking out realising that chiristmas is coming and the year 2005 is coming to an end.
means i have to go on to sec3.
means no play life for me.
means i have to go back to school and face all the thick books with alot of words.
hope that i will not regret my combination.
hope i really will score well for literature and prove it to myself.
dont feel like typing anything else.
no mood...really.
i dun feel the chirstmas mood.
hope my clique will cheer me up.
smile doreen.
can the word BIASNESS not exist in the world?
can everyone be treated equally?
BIASNESS is getting out of control
Monday, December 19, 2005
posted at 8:15 AM
neopets.neopets.neopets.
i think i am getting crazy over them.
ha.
its like usually when i come online, i go check my mail, read my tagboard, update my blog, read others' blog, talk online and go research on entertainment and stuff.
but now, i come online and rush to neopets and go get my neobank interest.
wadeva man doreen.
haix.
i am still childish i guess.
AND MY INTERNET CONNECTION TOTALLY SUCKS!!!
finally learnt how to be a good and nice owner to my little neopets.
haha.
cant wait for 23 december man.
going to stayover at vera's house with rach faith trina genia ME.
clique chirstmas party.
and i am suppose to get a present for trina.
wadeva lar....why HER!!!
haha.
its like.. its the same girl again.
i was like shopping for her present today
and i dunno wad to get for her.
i was thinking how about a chinese drama for her.
she will KILL me.
haha.
anyone knows where lydia is?
cos like i AM worried for her.
she like didnt update since 20 nov
and i think she should be back even if she had went for a holiday.
cos her darling 5566 were here for a concert yesterday.
haix.
wanna ask her out.
PLS CALL ME.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
posted at 1:16 PM
long time no update my blog liao.
yep.
have been playing neopets.
ha!
it was like super werid lar.
i am so old liao.
but i found out that vera was playing too.
so i felt it was alright after all.
ha!
quite a few things did happen these past few days.
haix.
so fan nao...
SHE NEW ABLUM
7F NEW ABLUM
TYPHOON NEW ABLUM [toro's new band]
PLS SUPPORT.
i am worried for him now if you heard the news.
posted at 9:10 AM
long time no update my blog liao.
yep.
have been playing neopets.
ha!
it was like super werid lar.
i am so old liao.
but i found out that vera was playing too.
so i felt it was alright after all.
ha!
quite a few things did happen these past few days.
haix.
so fan nao...
SHE NEW ABLUM
7F NEW ABLUM
TYPHOON NEW ABLUM
[toro's new band]
PLS SUPPORT.
i am worried for him now if you heard the news.
Thursday, December 8, 2005
posted at 9:54 PM
i just realised that friends are diffcult to keep.
doesnt mean you dont meet them often means you are not friends.
you are still friends with that person.
yesterday i was talking to cheryl online for an hour.
its like we havent talked to each other for almost a year.
and there we are talking and talking like we were in sec one.
i have just realised that i should treasure and talk to all my good friends who are not in the same class as me now.
i already lost enough close goodfriends in primary school liao.
i dun wanna to increase the number of friends i have lost.
maybe i should just stop being a dao-er and just say that 'halo' to that friend who walk past me.
sorry if i dont say hi to you next year.
so just hi me and i will hi you back.
haha.
sorry lar. i am born to be a DAO-ER.
bought my sec3 books today.
they are freaking me out.
the thickness of the books are really freaking me out.
and i think i should start reading up chinese, literature, chemistry, physics and e-maths.
A*maths is really freaking me out.
its like i am already having big problems with emaths
and the A*maths book is SO THICK!!!
good luck for me.
the heymaths homework is really DIFFCULT.
i got like 7/30 lar.
i dun even know how to do like 1/2 the test.
and i didnt dare to do the other test.
i want to go back to school to study!!!
but i dread to go.
i dunno lar.
its like i am contridicting myself.
i wanna go back to school and meet my friends, get my allowance, check out my next year class and hope i get all the good teachers.
i dun wanna go back cos going back to school means...
i will need to wake up at 6, i will need to sleep at latest 11.30pm.
i will need to face all my books everyday.
I WILL HAVE TO SEE MY SISTER IN SCHOOL!!!
thats bad.
i will be stuck with her for 2 years in school.
wad if she joins GB?
good luck for me then.
it will be so embarrasing to meet her in school.
its like if she sees me at the canteen when i am with my friends, and she shouts 'JIE JIE' at a distance.
and even if i try to use my daoing skills to ignore her, she will run over and tap me.
eww.
and i would have to walk with her to school everyday.
i will make sure i walk really fast.
i know i am being really mean to my sister here.
but i dun like her sucking up to my friends lar.
trina knows it best.
like how my sister sucks to her on the phone and stuff.
haix.
read BIBLE and dictionary all afternoon.
feel so nerd.[the dictionary part]
and guess wad.
yesterday i was waken up by the heavy rain
and i was so super scared to sleep.
its that stupid emily rose thingy ok.
i was so scared to see wad time it was.
so i decided to wake until 6.30am when my maid wakes up.
fine. i waited with my hair standing from my head to my toes for i think 2 hours.
i was like playing with my fingers and i prayed ALOT!
i was like what if it is 3am now?
can i smell any burnt smell?
what if i see ghost?
how should i scream?
then i just realised something.
i am in a all chirstian family.
and i had like crosses in my living room
and even have a chinese written bible verse on the wall.
when the 'ghost' sees that, they will probably run away.
so i was thinking ' stupid doreen'
haha.
and i was singing chirstian songs and doing mini dancing with my fingers.
and i told GOD, let me just take a little nap and i will wake up and read the bible.
yep.
i slept all the way until 10.40am
i tell you.
I SO REGRET WATCHING TH EMILY ROSE SHOW!!!
this totally sucks.
i was even thinking ' will i go to hell cos i watched that show!!!'
ok...i am werid.
for the lord is my tower
and he gives me the power
to tear down the works
of the enemies
in the diffcult hour
he will crush down the devourers
and bring the house of darkness underneath my feet!!!!
YEAH!
Wednesday, December 7, 2005
posted at 5:49 AM
VERA TAN!!!
vera likes pink cos her ambition is to be a super bimbo.
i so miss her yesterday cos she and her rachel ong didnt come for carolling practice.
no vera's laughter
her always playing faster than everyone in angklung was missing.
haha.
its like how she would laugh after she plays it at the wrong time.
and how she will spot me doing the wrong thing.
wadeva vera.
[just for everyone's info, vera wanted her big fat name here. so there she goes.]
posted at 5:31 AM
bad mood from yesterday.
still in a terrible mood.
maybe its all the moody songs i have been listening to.
SONGS CAN reAlly affect youR MOOD.
maybe i am really a SADIST.
haix.
i pity my sister.
cos i was in a bad mood.
so i started scolding her for every single move she makes.
i am a bad jie jie lar.
and she is like my 'chu qi tong'[venting anger person]
i think the translation is something like that lar.
and once i start scolding, i can keep on scolding until i lock myself in the room.
dont worry, i dont scold everyone and anyone.
maybe only curse the person behind her back.
you pple should know who are the 2 pple i always curse.
ok that is so mean of me.
guitar is really turf.
at last i have persuaded my kor to teach me.
and i am having a really hard time.
cos i am learning a right-hande guitar.
kor suggested me to go get a left-handed guitar and learn from a left-hander from church.
things would be easier for me.
but. i thot of learning the right-handed guitar instead.
same for drums.
havent seen someone teaching drums for left-handers.
so haf to learn the right-handers way.
super irrtating.
i just hate it!!! hating all this right left handed issue.
even piano!!!
cos i am a left hander, so my left hand tends to play louder than my right hand.
and the right thing is, right hand is suppose to sound louder.
WADEVA.
why must left handers always to things the right handed way?
why must left handers learn how to use right handed things?
why must everything be created for right hand use?
even the mouse is on the right!!
the door knob is meant for right handers, the tolist bolw flush, books...
EVERY SINGLE THING IS MEANT FOR RIGHT HANDERS!!!.
this world is totally unfair.
you may say almost everything is made for the right handers cos the majority are right hander.
but still, they should some things on the left..
is either i am hate this world or am i just hating myself?
why must i be the one that is left handed?
why must i be the one with ultra big head?
why?!?!
why am i the sadist of the world?
i really dunno.
i am not blaming god for making me like that.
i am blaming MYSELF for being like that.
the day i was born, if i started using my right hand and grab things, things will be different now.
the day i was born before i was born, if i prayed really hard to god for a smaller head, things will be different.
cos if i had a smaller head.
i could fit nicely into those caps and visors, dun have to special make my specs, could cut my hair any way i wanted it to be, could fit nicely into those hairbands.
once and for all, i hate myself for being doreen.
now i should talk about other things on a lighter mood.
i have been doing for my mum this handphone pouch.
HAND-MADE from scratch.
no sewing machine.
you may be thinking,'why not just buy one?'
but i think pple will treasure things better if you made it all on your own.
i shall go and continue reading my dictionary and start reading the BIBLE!!!
posted at 3:13 AM
ok. trina made me blog about whatever happened today.
woke up late.
but managed to get to school on time.
had carolling practice.
was not that bad.
had lunch with trina at KAP.
shacker fries, mac nuggets and sprite.
YUM!!!:)
went to btp after that.
cos trina didnt want to go home early.
walked around in btp.
its a damn sian place lar.
me and trina just kept on talking and talking.
like wad we always did.
haix.
back to the good old days when we waste our time talking like no one's business.
finish watching tian guo de jia yi.
ok meijin, you can have it back...ha!
when i came home, dunno why in bad mood.
its like until now lor.
dunno wads wrong with me too...heex.
**i am still crazy over jeanette and ENERGY pls...**
haha.
i shall post my emo post tmr.
cya.
Tuesday, December 6, 2005
posted at 6:41 AM
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
If love isn't a game, why are there so many players?
Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push!
Actions speak louder than words.
The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff.
Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have.
Some people make the world special by just being in it.
Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us.
When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.
True friendship never ends.
Friends are forever.
Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile.
Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart.
If u love something...let it go. If it comes back to you its yours.... If it doesn't then it never was.
A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love.
A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of.
A dream is just a dream until u make it come true.
LOVE is just a word until its proven to you.
--------------------[rip from a forwarded mail]
totally agree with all those points that are italic and bold.
they are really true.
hope you will believe what it says above.
DONT CRY OVER ANYONE WHO WONT CRY OVER YOU
WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN THE ONLY PERSON WHO CAN MAKE YOU STOP CRYING IS THE PERSON WHO MADE YOU CRY?
i agree the most to these.
please dont make the same mistake as me.
posted at 5:46 AM
JEANETTE GOT INTO TOP 10 BEST ACTRESS FOR STAR AWARDS!!!
wooh.
haha.
suddenly got the jeanette craze in me again.
haha.
and i am loving rainbow connection a lot now.
haha.
and surprisingly, ruien got into top 10 too.
she looked so freaking shocked lar.
haha.
trina didnt expect to get in thot...
haix. no confidence in ruien.
ha!
and jeantte look so PRETTY.
haha. love her necklace.
and another suprising thing happened.
genia doesnt like pinghui anymore.
haha.
dunno how she did it too.
and she didnt watch star awards.
haix. wad a pity.
715 was super handsome yesterday.
haha.
he look so good.
i dunno if i really like you or not.
but wadeva, i will reject.
i wanna see you just one more time.
even if it is from a distance.
just wanna hear you talk and see your smile.
is that asking too much?
its diffcult to forget someone.
and its painful to forget those sweet memories.
now tell me how?
Saturday, December 3, 2005
posted at 8:42 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DA KOR!!!
HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY TO ANGIE!!!
at last, i am having a day of rest today.
last 3 days, i was busy helping at a children's camp.
i didnt exactly help lar.
was like sitting there and stone.
haix.
but had a fun time laughing at the kids doing werid stuff and saying how cute they are.
when i was comparing myself to the kids, i finally understood why so many pple rather be kids than adults.
cos there is only laughter and happiness in a kid's life.
everyone wants to be a kid.
except me.
when i was small, i always wanted to grow up and go and work.
fine. i am WERID.
7F and SHE roCks!!
yep. both of their new ablums roCks!!
i am MAD OVER PUZZLES NOW.
dont ask me why.
i just started doing one after another.
i have completed so far 7 sets liao.
going to my 8th one.
is not those kiddy types ok.
its the chim type...ha
gotta go now.
miss 2t lots.
