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is my self-protrait better now? HAHA!


wha, i'm still better at camwhoring la hor? LOL!


I'M ADDICTED TO BIGBANG COS I'VE BEEN LISTENING TO THEM ALL DAY!
G-DRAGON AND T.O.P ARE NEW LOVELOVE :D
the yoyoyo raprap LOVE


at last something good happened.

i had a photo shoot on sunday at my auntie's place after church.
it was my second attempt for my final assignment since my first photo shot was considered a failure cos my teacher asked me to change my topic just.
okay, fine. found the people and on with my photo shot.
mom spend $70 ++ on fruits for me, and dad chauffeured us around getting the prettiest fruits for me:D
thanks mom and dad :D

then, the photoshoot was initially thought by everyone to be very successful since i have a great deal of support from my family and relatives.
then the horror of my life came when i went home i realised that the setting of my camera got meddled.
yes, you guessed it, the settings were totally changed by someone which i not really sure if she did it.
i almost killed myself for being so stupid and unlucky, i was wishing so deeply in my heart that i was dreaming due to my tiredness, but i cant seem to wake up from my 'dream'.
ISO was on high, and pictures size was on S (small).
how awesome, i've got really noisy pictures (grainy/ realy bad quality) and my photos were all really small (640 X 480).
someone save me.
it looked real great on the camera but on this macbook pro called DONALD, it didnt turn out ALL THAT good.


was really scared to show teacher today, almost cried in class like twice/thrice.
but i know it would be really stupid for me to do that and i am not suppose to cry when i have one week to save my 'i-am-so-failing-this-assignment-and-module' photography assignment.

lucky manage to talked it out with teacher and he was being all nice telling me that composition and my models were good and expressive, so i think that sort of saved my life from failing.
though he assured me that i should still try to reshoot and he would still minus me a part of my marks for giving bad quality photos.
oh wells, its not a big percentage according to him.
hope i would die that badly.

that means, if actually i have shot everything well, i could have easily grab onto my that A man.
ohwells, this is just my lousy fate.
but since i've shoot my pics on sunday, i still got some of the $70 worth of fruits in my fridge.
took them out and made my sister spend about another hour helping me out by being my model once again.

lol, i dont know how well it went just hope that nothing big screwed up this time.
but i seriously felt much better after shooting it again, though i've not seen the photos on computer.

okay, did and completed my -a-self-protrait-that-dont-even-look-like-me- for my 2D Art assignment.
here it is,

this is the only good thing that happened.
cos at least it didnt turn out like an alien or something.
i know its quite ugly.
but oh wells, i'm so happy for myself since i really CANNOT draw portrait for nuts.
i can only do portrait in abstract style, yo.
and looking at my ugly self portrait now, i think the eyes are seriously too big.
okay, i shall go edit it now.
haha

lucky i posted about my self-portrait, if not i would never realised the BIG EYES


I CAN'T BELIEVE JO JUST CALLED ME A BIMBO!!


i ate a timtam biscuit on thursday.
and after i ate that chocolate coated biscuit, i already had a really dried throat and i was thinking that i would get a sore throat.

yeah, and now, im ill with very bad flu, headache and mild sore throat.

damn, i really cant take chocolate
especially too chocolaty ones :(


i cant believe this

& i really hate you so much

for not giving respect to a person 6 years older than you.

you totally suck.
cos you would only give respect to anyone else other than me.

what is the world turning into?
one that i would rather not know and understand.

and i hate you so.


Taken from Xuewei's blog.
haha, i've only decided to do it when i saw question 10 & 15 :D:D
no presents for guessing my reason to want to answer those 2 questions.

here it goes.
01. What disappoints you the most?
Myself

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
DUH, KOREA!!!!! :D:D:D

03. What's the most romantic thing that you would like to do with the one you love?
Spend my life with him, which is to marry him :D

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
No, but sometimes it does, like temporary happiness i guess.

05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
I really dream that everyone will really be happily living their lives, that no one gets hurt or cry anymore for anything, even if i have to be the one that suffers for their happiness. (but i guess this would never come true in this world)

06. Do you believe you can survive without money?
No.

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
My loved ones, my family, my friends & friendships, myself, whatever i believe in.

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Buy a property for investment, buy presents for my loved ones, and treat myself to a month's stay in korea.

09. What do you dream of doing in the future?
Director, most likely something entertainment related.

10. Do you know who is super junior ?
YESSSS!!! DUH!, how can korean-do not know this awesome korean boyband?!! :D

11.What makes you happy?
Seeing the smiles of others, knowing that you are happily living off somewhere, be it with me or without me, to know that i'm special.

12.What type of person do you hate most?
backstabbers, 2-faced monsters, irritating people, players-in-love, arrogant people.

13.Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
In the mids of my career, probably married with 2 kids already.

14.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
The people around me, they keep me going :D oh, and music!

15.Why do you love super junior ?
AHHH!! cos they are a group of KOREAN + 1 china boys :D and they are so cute, talented, humourous, handsome, .... .. .. .. .. :D:D

16. Which cartoon character you like most?
hmm, any cute ones?? haha, cant think at the moment

17.Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like him/her?
No, i strongly believe that guys are suppose to be the one that confesses to the girl first. lol, but i may if .. ....

18.Who do you always bully?
HANNAH! RENEE! hmmm, thinking about it, i do bully many people :P but too many to list.

19.If you could have a superpower,what would it be?
Able to go back to the past or fly to the future?


guess what is the cheapest and best way to destress?


i hate to say this but,


gosh, I LOVE HUIYUU TO BITS!!
she got me this HOT PINK (definitely much hotter than this pink here) BEDROOM SLIPPERS WHICH WAS SO SMEXY :D
haha.
LOL!

i really really love it so i've been wanting a bedroom slippers for a loooong time.
i hope it doesnt become dirty or end up in my collecting-dust-corner in my room soon.
its really :D:D
hah

and i decided to have a camwhoring session yet again.
okay, trust me, its been a loong time since i've relaxed
since this week was wayy crazy.
and its seems that next week is as crazy.
lol, maybe not that crazy.

and to show a happy bright side of do, here are the pics.
well there were some emo ones as well. gosh, this is so DO, since now DO means emo.
lol.
(just realised this, i'm like putting 12 pics of myself in one post and i really feel like some hard-core camwhorer. you can ignore the pics if you want. i post it for my own fun-joy-and-laughter.)

here you go :D, (pardon the ugly background)















actually, looking at the pics again just now,
i realised something,
other than being a little more photogenic now from all my self-camwhoring session,
i realised that im really a little like whatever everything thinks and says about me,
DOREEN IS A REALLY HAPPY-GO-LUCKY GIRL.
she's always so happy and she've got nothing to worry for.
she will just go jumping and laughing around.

well, though i really do give many people different impressions of me, that is one impression many thought of me and i used/am still hating it alot.
cos that makes me like some princess who doesnt give a damn about anything.
i told my mummy about it, and she just told me that its just my face and behaviour that tend to give people the impression that im some 千金小姐, spoilt brat, ...

haha, do i really have this princess-ce attitude and face?
well maybe cos im pretty cold and un-sociable at times.


i was talking to him yesterday night


why, why do i always make myself look so sad?

why, why do i always make it seem that i am standing alone?

i dont know, i just realised that i always portray myself as a sad and lonely person.
okay, no doubt i really feel like that in some places, such as ______. (perhaps its only at this place i feel lonely at)
but, it still couldnt be my reason for being so emo.

its been so long,
that i think i'll go mad any moment.
the only thing i can go mad is because, i dont know what exactly made me like that
(& law just dejavu-ed me)

what am i looking for?
someone who would be there for me?
but there are already so many who are willing to stand by me.

why am i forever unhappy?
i cant continue living like that can i?

No one understands me, do you?
I dont even know why im like that.


On the last bus 171, i was feeling all crappy and shitty.


MY DRAWING OF THE ZOO :P

haha, i got so high just now and did this stencil drawing.
okay, it looks damn elementary work.
but, oh wells.
it made my day :D
haha!!


I see people not knowing what customer service is all about.


im feeling much better.
after pubbing.
haha, okay, pubbing as in not ITERALLY pubbing.
like doing publicity work for my church.
lol.

yeah, and i've got much happier, pub totally brought up my mood today.
haha, i always feel very happy after working on pub stuff, with the blog especially.
maybe its really the joy of serving the Lord i guess.
which is great :D

Thank You Lord :D


you made it sound as if its my fault for having fears and weaknesses.
you said that i couldnt be a human if i had so much fears and weaknesses.
but have you thought before,
that having fears and weaknesses are actually factors that make you human.

you made it sound as if you had no fears.
you made it sound as if you had no weaknesses.
so, are you the one who's not human?
since having fears and weakness are factors that make one human?

shit, i feel like hating you so much.
but how could you be as insensitive as always and said all those to me?

GUYS out there, it is VERY natural for girls to be fearful of alot of things in this world.
it is very natural for girls to tend to show their weaknesses in front of everyone.
but please, dont ever say that we have too much fears and weaknesses in us.
cos you actually have fears and weaknesses in yourself as well, just that as man, you're told to not show it.

please be sensitive with your words, humans.


im working on a essay on depression now.
haha, yeah.
i chose this topic cos i've read it up before.

but now its in a more condense form i guess.
the more i read and research on it, the more i think i suffered some form of depression before.
i hit most of the symptoms.
yes, im mad.

but there's an extent to my madness, i would make sure i wouldnt enter IMH for emotional madness.
though my uncle did, that's the more i would make sure i dont.

oh wells, be it me suffered from depression/suffering depression at the moment, i would let myself think too much huh.

sighx, kendra said something that was so right.
okay, we had this cranky conversation just now on msn, 2 girls going high on fasting and crazy things on a tuesday night on msn.
and then she told me, 'there is no reason why we should be emo, cos we've got Jesus. We're the light of this world.' (okay, correct me if its wrong kendra. its just something along those lines huh)

yeah, and that was the same reason why im still living until today.
the reason that i gave myself when i wanted to do nasty things to myself.

well, if i actually did it years back, i wouldn't have the courage to face Him in heaven and tell him what i did.

Thank you.