i was happily ji-lianing at joc's mac pro with fel's lensless specs today in class when the teacher's talking i'm getting more and more daring yeah? :):) okay, that's not something that happy to be, but i love the camwhoring session!!
photos will do the talking!
me & joc :)
me, hannah and joc
i love these 2 photos! do you believe that i almost gotten this specs when i changed my specs like last month? HAHA, cos the person kept on telling me now this is in the trend. lol. haha, well it doesnt go with dresses hence i didnt get it. but i still love it when it comes to camwhoring :)
doreen got bored, also needed to be able to see my surroundings when the teacher talk, so i wore my specs with fel's.. and this is what you get! double specs :) alone!!
guess what, when i was camwhoring on my own, hannah came over and wanted to be a ghost. lol, look what it became?
HAHA!, camwhoring makes DOREEN happy :):) lol. we have loads more camwhoring sessions + photos today in particular just that i dont them now :)
i'm really feeling happy after seeing all these photos!! && after catching up a little with my dear cousin, isabel :)
Ah, i'm seriously very screwed for korean dictation tmr.
well, its kinda of a big big test for me :X
i need to like learn 45 vocabularies when the teacher didnt even teach us the ABCs in proper.
Aisshhh.
And guess what, i just like totally wasted 2.5 hours watching SNSD.
but girl factory is so nice, all girls should check it.
its about SNSD being fashion editors.
after watching 2 episodes, i think my fashion sense really sucks..
and koreans really have good fashion sense cause they dress so well even on the streets.
i've always knew this, hence have been trying to not dress sloppy anymore.
okay, just to take the 2.5 hours i spent on watching k-variety shows as comfort, i remember my teacher telling us to watch korean dramas and movies. (which i have been watching ALOT already .. :D)
okay, those 2.5 hours spent on variety shows was to improve my korean ... HAHA.
yes, i should get back my butt to study korean after dinner :|
but i hate to take public transport from church to home nowadays.
but i need to go church every saturday now
and every week when i am in that one hour trip home, i'll just sit in the bus, and emo all the way home.
and i usually have the most emo thoughts in long lonely bus rides like such.
i dont deny that i do like and enjoy it, but the thoughts are so bad, it just pollutes this world and me.
i talked to 2 people in church just now.
we somehow talked about foreign people who works in singapore and such.
i remember saying how a lot of singaporean fly aboard to work there, or even stay there for good, that's why singapore needs to hire foreigners, which most singaporeans refers to people who steals their rice bowls.
its just suddenly hit me,
if i wasnt born in singapore, things would have been so different for me.
I thanked God a few times for putting me in this safe, green and nice small country called singapore.
but now, I may have other thoughts about being born in singapore.
If I was born elsewhere in Asia,
maybe korea or japan may sound good,
I would have been able to complete my ambitions.
I would be able to pursue music, arts and film so strongly. (though i'm doing that now ..)
because, those countries allow you to grow and gives you space to do your music, to expand your creativity.
well, singapore is a country that is really not catered to those who loves Arts
who loves music,
who loves dancing,
who loves film,
who loves to draw,
...
Does that mean ...
I'm not made to be in Singapore?
Does that mean,
all my dreams about my future just crash because I'm a Singaporean in Singapore?
Does that mean,
I am forced to fly out of my country because I want to build and achieve my dream?
I look at singers who i considered successful.
And i am always amazed by the things they do, the songs they write, the way they sing, the way they dance, the fashion sense they have, the creative minds that have full of original ideas, ...
where did they come from?
And i realised, Its because they have the space and environment to grow in, to show what they really got.
But, if i stay here, i would probably just be some rubbish musician, trash director, retarded digital visual effects graduate ...
But to pursue my dreams, and whatever I've mention above,
I need to be selfish and give up everyone here,
I need to be daring to leave home and my loved ones into the alien world outside.
today, went out with jing to town:D yeah, at last promos are officially over.
i managed to get SO MANY THINGS i wanted badly today. gotten BOA's THE FACE album at last. was so super impressed with her concert, i told myself i must be a true blue fan and get it :D (so everyone should start buying their music)
i've been wanting this for more than half a year by now, EASEL!!! YAY! i've got it at last!!! :D:D i'm so happy :)
i bought it at artfriend AND CARRIED IT ALL THE WAY HOME FROM TOWN. yeah, it was crazy, everyone stared me in the bus. haha, and they stared when i walked .. cause one hand was hugging easel, other hand carrying wooden board
i need to make a exclusive space for it in my room.. cause i just realised my room is not that big .. yeah, i should start drawing my abstracts on drawing blocks now.. then i should start attempt to paint them :X
oh, and check this out
yeah, BoA's Eat You Up (Asian Version) full mv. enjoy.
i love today cause i've got my easel now .. i shall not attempt to name it .. LOL.
i knew something bad was going to happen when my left eye was twitching quite a lot this week. well, i usually dont really have that maybe only once a in a loooong while. but this week was kinda of bad..
damn, fel got me into this song for good. Pussy Cat Doll's - When i grow up. haha, its been a loooong while since i was stuck to something english. lol. self-claim bimbo who dont listen or watch english entertainment .. haha. i should change the repeat button and shuffle all my korean music. HAHA!
anyhow, i dont know if i wanna leave this place to study somewhere dangerous for 5 months. i dont wanna die at a foreign place, i dont wanna die at a place where i dont have my loved ones :X
went out with joc, hannah and fel on wednesday. and here's the photos (yes, smile joce!) we went to ikea for BRUNCH :D yeah, those are all our food :)
MEETBALLS!! MEATBALLS!! yes, and hannah wanted to slience murder me -.-
joc:D
hannah L drinking greentea which looks a little like beer.. haha
joc + fel
then walked around to look look, and camwhore a little here and there..
me and fel agreed that these mirrors made our legs look longerrrrr :D and we happen to see this thing!! HAHA!, yes its Throw FELICIA for $15. so hannah wanted to throw her .. HAHA
and then we also happen to see a world map being hung in the middle of no where at IKEA, and guess what, i found korea :D duh, cause i'm korean :D
then a little walk around, shopping at queensway shopping centre. believe it or not, its my first time there. fel on 50 cent ride
hannah on 50cent ride
we then headed to bugis street. we did so much shopping there.. LOL!
haha, i bought tatoos along the trip .. && here they are!! who said tatoos can't be cute :D:D
i love this. lol, this season is a real good for fangirling. lol
i woke up this morning, did some washing, turned on donald, and was thinking, its the October 15 today right? ... AHHH!!! DOES THAT MEANS FT ISLAND'S HEAVEN MV IS OUT?! DOES THAT MEAN FT ISLAND'S REPACKAGED SECOND ALBUM'S OUT?!!! AHHH~~ yeah, my brain works like that.
yay!!
though my brain and memory is kinda of bad now, i do remember stuff like that.. haha, yeah, release of MVs, albums and performances along with the timing.. lol. official rocker in kpop fangirling :D
-- i tell myself it would be a great day today, because my teacher suddenly cancelled the whole of today's lesson, which is actually 4 hours of non-stop drawing, because i'm going to go out with fel, hannah and joc the whole day. because FT's repackaged album is out because FT's Heaven + Loving You MV is out
me and jocelyn spent 2 hours discussing if we will go steal those tickets for kpop concert tmr, and if we are even going in the first place.
hannah joined us for an hour during our discussion cause we needed a middle man.
yeah, so conclusion is,
we are not going, cause it will really be such a big trouble to just go and watch that concert.
we'll need to spend cabbing + peak hours charges to fly us from ngee ann to indoor stadium,
we'll need to get people to queue for us to get the best seats (we're not even sure if cutting of queue is allowed!)
we'll need to spend $120 dollars to just get those tickets.
we'll need to miss our 3rd language lessons.
and we can't afford to miss that language class.
okay, so we'll not going .. HAHA!!
anyhow, i really loved today (other than the fact that my brain juices are squeezed dry due to the over-stressed from the discussion about kpop concert)
today felt more like official first day of school sem 2.
well, cause i got to meet renee, fel, hannah and joc together after 2 months.
lol, it was wayyy too long!
and the other highlight for the day is,
DOREEN WENT FOR 1ST KOREAN LANGUAGE LESSONS :D
this is so love.
i can openly speak korean for like 2 hours.
lol, i really learn alot even in this 2 short hours.
our teacher is real nice and she teaches really non-stop for 2 hours.
and she's a korean :D ain't that cool.
haha, i have like korean writing practices to do,
and i've got spelling next week.
haha!! more than glad to do korean homework!
makes me feel closer to korea/being korean :)
but, something kinda of suck for k-spelling.
i need to learn 45 vocabularies, and she's only testing 10.
okay, i will really need to work real hard to get that 10 right.
but oh wells, i really really loved the k-lesson though i have no friend there.
korea is agree my friend, i dont need friend in that class.
yoyo, check this out. this so totally rocks. and you make sure you got what i meant, ITS A KOREA FESTIVAL IN SINGAPORE!! yes, you got that right singapore.
and what's the best thing? I'm going to count down to this and get my eyes glued to this. there would be a k-pop concert going on, i hope they bring in better singers cause i don't really fancy everyone that's going to perform. I mean, i was pretty disappointed that they are just flying those singers over, they could always fly in better singers that i lovelove. flying either big bang / ft island / dong bang / super junior / battle / shinhwa works well for me, so why ain't any of them coming -.-
i will consider going for the concert then .. lol nah, i've decided. i'll go if i get the tickets! for the sake for basking in a k-pop concert which will definitely be awesome cause they always are :D:D
the first person i thought to talk to was Icy. But i shouldnt be talking to her at this point of time, its her critical point of time to study real hard.
I shouldnt make her waste her life on me and talk to this fool.
i thought today was an awesome day. since it was the start of my break from work, since i was 'alone' at home. (brother was sleeping, so that makes it the same.)
packed my room, its a lot neater now which is satisfying. watch BoA's MADE IN TWENTY concert, which was awesome. did a number of house chores which i thought was good enough as a daughter. well, since i never did house chores, by doing some should be good enough right?
but yet, everything sucks now. everyone seems to have something against me. everyone hates me.
please just tell me that you hate me if you really do. (its like how you should just tell me you love me if you really do)
so i was in too much hope for this day. everything's in vain, even the little things i do for you that you never chose to see.
i didnt say i hate you, did i? Now let me let you all hear it once again, I don't hate you for making all these happens, making me feel miserable and angry. I hate my life which just sucks to the max. Nothing goes well for me and its just my fate. I hate myself, because I'm living this sucky life that I wanna end.
LAST DAY OF WORK! at last the end of crazy 2 months of work. seriously, this is the first time i worked so much in 2 months, this is the first time i worked so hard for 2 months, this is the first time i used my holidays so wisely, this is the first time i think i'm going to miss my job cause i love it!
yeah, i'm having crazy mixed feelings about leaving my 2 month childcare teacher job for school. i'm so glad that i'm getting a short holiday/rest till next monday at last! i get to you whatever i really want during the holidays in this week! but, i'm already missing my kids. it was so sad when i ended work today, breaking the news officially to the kids that i'm going. and they want me back to celebrate christmas with them, i hope i make it happen. so i can go and give them more presents :) well, its not that i'm damn loaded with cash or something, i like to see the smiles of those kids :D
i read G's blog today, i cried. i felt so sad, i dont know why. well, i felt that i've been a bad friend during this period we didnt meet. i dont know what exactly happened in her life. but all i know is, i owe her one big hug. i'll give it to her when i see her. sorry for being a bad friend, my dear.
And how can i help Icy? i dont know, but cant help to see my life in hers. i see so much of myself in her that, its kinda of scary. we're not related in anyway, but yet we're so similar. but, i've always thought, and still think that my life is one of the worst to see. i dont wish to see all my suffering replay in someone else's life. i dont wish for someone i love to experience everything i've did. well, cause its someone i love, that's why i feel the great need to protect.
and she makes me worry so much. its not her fault i know. i know how she's feeling now, its too much like mine that i cant do anything but worry. because her parents and mine are not similar. and i dont want her future to be like mine. she ought to live a better life than me.
God, look after Icy and her schooling life. She needs to make it, and do well next year to be able to do whatever she wants in the future. God, she needs you.
well, we were just suppose to get children's days present.
yeah, it was my second trip to get presents for my kids at the childcare.
spent alot on the first trip with my sister, cause i had to buy her whatever she grabbed for her children's day present ... i'm a nice sista okay :)
yeah, i was saying, we were suppose to just complete my shoppings for children's day's present for the kids plus a meal together.
end up, we had a little of informal shopping for food and clothes.
haha, it was quite funny.
it seems as if we bought things like money would never run out.
okay, we didnt really spend that much but well, maybe its just me cause i bought a new jacket that looked like a trench coat that day, and its really pretty :D:D
&& i really loved and enjoyed the talk we had then and there.
in the night, busy with the presents for the next day
30 September - Tuesday
wanted to blog, wishing everyone HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY but failed to.
haha, went to work a whole big bag of gift whichjing did compliment me to be a good teacher who buys sweets/goodie bags/soft toys for my kids. :)
for once i spend so much for children's day.
but seeing them loving it was a joy too :)
1 October - Wednesday
Public Holiday <- NO WORK!
got woken up by mummy to go out for lunch at like 10 am, she kinda of conned me to wake up, but we really went out at like 10 ++ am for lunch.
yes, mummy fulfilled her promise i requested in the beginning of this year, which is to celebrate children's day:)
so me, second kor and younger sis went out for lunch with mummy.
then, we went grocery shopping, all of us together, for once!!
well, mummy did her shopping and i still can't believe me, david and doretta was kinda of running around and playing at NTUC Finest -.-
we're not all that young anymore, i bet its just the day.
after lunch, went to jo's place where dojojing gathered.
played pool which i really really missed!
lol, i was bugging jo about going her place soon cause i wanna play pool.
we talked so much that i really love:)
walked to Buddy's for dinner, then walked back to jo's place.
well, this is the only group of people i am willing to walk so much with.
don't attempt to ask me to walk, unless shopping :)
then, left jo's place at about 11pm, which made me reached home at 12am.
okay, i've been going home real late these days no wonder mum's complaining about me going out now.
2 October - Thursday
well, the only day in the week i spent so much time at home.
lol, and i watch finish getting and watching THE FACE CONCERT.
love, its real good but its not in singapore yet :( I shall make myself buy the original!
3 October - Friday today
after work, met huiyu at town. <- we're out after 1/2 a year. damn!
yeah, we dined at PASTA de WARAKU @ Heeren
Cream Sauce - Bacon & Potato
haha, at last i managed to dine there after many times at waraku.
then we went to get my close-to-5-months belated birthday present.
which happens to be 2 rings and a hairband.
lol, which is what i really love :) since i get to pick whatever i wanted!
no one is to copy my peace-y style.
felt so much bigbanged after i got the ring, damn i'm getting drugged.
then we had a little crazy shopping cause we started buying whatever was on offer.
haha, lol.
oh, now, me and yuu share a buddy handphone pouch :D:D its so lovely and comfortable that our handphones will feel so loved in it. HAHA!! seriously, its really good, unique from those you see often ..
and did i mention that i'm already broke since the start of the week?
damn, and i'm still spending as if my daddy prints cash, or produce gold every day :|
this made me realised how much i must earn in the future to maintain this crazy shopping craze of mine.
&& i love how my ring collection is starting to build up now,
this so totally rocks.
