Tuesday, December 26, 2006
posted at 8:49 AM
christmas.
sighx, okay i really sound super emo in this hols..
but i dont really care.. HAHAHA!!!
so bored..
I WANNA WATCH DEATHNOTE 2:):)
i cant wait for NANA to come back,
and go out with my shanghai friend, RUTH:P
LALA.. so boring..
i hate it,
cos schoool is going to start all over again.
one more year till graduation.
Friday, December 15, 2006
posted at 7:49 AM
ARGHhahahahah!!
i cant believe this man.
THE STORY STARTS LIKE THAT!doreen went to vivo city with cousins, isabel & isador
we walked pass a KOREAN SHOP, beauty credit whose spokesman is HYUN BIN:)
yeah, so i walked in was googoo gaagaa-ing at the stuff that flew to singapore from korea..
ARGH!!HAHA!
then, we decided to play with the nail polish there.
so we painted our nails and romoved it..
the people working in the shop kept staring at us cos we didnt really plan to get anything there anyway.
we felt bad and 4 bottles of nail polish,
white, black, metallic pink and vanilla pink.
yeah.
back at my isabel's place, we painted our nails all the way to like almost 1am..
HA!
yeah, and guess what.
my left hand nails are white and right are vanilla pink.
yeah, unbelievable right.
DOREEN PAINTED HER NAILS.
ARGHhahahaha...
my blog is SO DEAD..
lalala.
so i shall keep my post SHORT:)
Monday, December 11, 2006
posted at 2:49 PM
at last done with the children's camp in church.
yeah, super tired and all still.
now, hanging out at my cousin's house..
not exactly going to relax and play to the max here..
i still have never ending homework to complete..
CRAP!
i still have dont know how many maths question to do lor..
plus chinese homework... sighx.
Os is just next year..
its like only 1/2 a year more..
crap. i hate this feeling.
my life feels so empty and all now.
its like, i am just an idiot waiting for time to fly by.
waiting for time to reach 2007..
waiting for the hols to get away..
i dont know..
i know i will hate it once its all over.
but, for this year, just this year, i feel really terrible and very miserable during the end of year hols.. which is now.
i dont know and i cant explain much here.
maybe i just dont wish to make myself clear to all and dont wish to elaborate on it any further..
'DO PRAYER WORK??' i still ask myself that question constantly after that thing is over..
argh, no one to talk everything about to..
i just cant bring myself to talk everything out..
its like, i even find it so difficult to bring it out of my mouth to my mum...
she always seem to have never ending meetings to attend to and too busy to talk.
yeah, she have changed.
i remembered how we use to go out together and just talk about what we feel about things and just hang out together.
just the 2 of us, like sisters.
but now, its seems that we have drifted.
i dont know.
we dont talk so much about ourselves...sighx.
after that incident ..
after that incident ..
nothing in this world seems to be working the right way after that incident ..
i agree and am very proud that i have such a nice and hip mum.
a mum that most female teenagers wish they would have cos its so easy to connect us to her.
she just know the trend and acts like 'another teen'...
yeah.. but, time... the factor here is time.
everything feels so empty and when i sleep alone in my dark big room at night, everything will just come back to me like how i cried the other time on my bed after finding out that everything is gone and time will never turn back.
i will just cry myself to sleep once again..
so now, i hate my room in the night and i cant sleep on that bed in the night any longer.
i hate that place now.
so i guess the day i let everything go and forget the hurt would be the day i would be able to sleep on my own big nice comfy bed with no tears..
yeah.
so, i shall just try to not think so much and.. let GOD continue his plan for me and work in my life.
ha, i have no other choice but to put my faith in him and let everything he planned in my life roll out.
friends .. .. .. HA! no comments.
I WILL MISS JO:(SHE LEFT ME IN THIS SMALL ISLAND ALL BY MYSELF!!!
yeah, she went to thailand:(:( TAKE CARE JO!!
but she was so sweet to call me before she leave..HAHA!
KWOK IS SO SWEET!!!SHE CALLED ME FROM TAIWAN TWICE:):):)!!
yeah, and she is getting me something..
LOVE HER:):)
yeah, i am getting so many oversea calls in this hols..
HA!
so far, FOUR!!
2 from JOANNE LIM from japan
2 from ELIEEN KWOK from taiwan:):)
LOVES:)
Saturday, December 9, 2006
posted at 11:59 AM
i am so
DEAD and tired from camp.
yeah, church children camp.
3 days of children day camp, not the stayover kind.
yeah, havent have proper sleep since sunday.
i tell you, i dont know how i am going to complete all my homework by next week.
i will just go... nuts.
shit, i think i am going to get sick tmr..
i am tired to the extend that i dont feel like eating or doing anything..
but the thing is, i cant exactly get to sleep as well.
every night, i just get high on my own and only can get to sleep at ... 12am?
yeah..
everyone seems to be so distant away from me ever since the hols.
now, i hate hols..
its just.. terrible.
argh..
Thursday, December 7, 2006
posted at 3:15 AM
i have posted for a week by now.
yeah, have been really busy.. not that i didnt wanna post.
and I AM ALWAYS IN SINGAPORE.
not the type who will travel during my hols, cos my family is always busy with church stuff.
so, quite impossible to travel.. yeah.
even if we do, we travel on our own for church or school or work purposes, not for leisure.
yeah, i am have been really busy with church stuff recently.
and its completely tiring me out.
i have been heading back to church everyday now, and its all the way at Toa Payoh.. thats why i really feel so tired and all.
moreover, i spent half a day there..
doing children's camp stuff.
on mon, i went to church at 3 and came home at 2130
yesterday, went to shurch at 1 and came back at 2245
yeah, it just gets earlier to church and later home..
no mentioning that i spent a whole day in church on sunday as well and celebrated my KOR's birthday, and still rushing thru prac work for the camp.
sighx, i am going to like die like that.. so tiring.
yeah, so i have been really dead and all at home these days.
so i end up getting super high in church when i get super tired and hungry.
yes, i havent been having proper meals..
no breakfast, very little for lunch, very late dinners, weird suppers.
yes, i dont know how i manage to take suppers still.. thats why its weird.
i hope everything will turn out alright for the children's camp.
i am like doing all the designing work for this camp, plus planning games.. yeah
so lots of pressure and work.
was actually looking for a job, to get money to pay off all my debts, and buy stuff i want.
but, i dont have energy and time to look for one and doing one now.
i have yet complete my homework.
i still have a whole load of Emaths and Amaths questions to do.
and i still have so many things church stuff.
i have children's camp from 7-9 december, youth camp from 20-23 december.
yeah, and i still need to have days to rest after the camps to get back my energy and sleep.
so, i dont know how i am going to survive.
i am living on music now.
the way not to make me sleep when i do work..
okay, not much to update since i cant think of much now..
HA! yeah.
i will update after i feel more energised..
maybe i just didnt have my breakfast again.. thats why i feel dead..HA!
Friday, December 1, 2006
posted at 12:05 PM
HA! have been buzy with TVXQ..
yeah, just looking them make me... hmm, i dont know how to say that..HA!
i have been busy loading their pics into the computer.
yeah, i am officially their official fanclub member in singapore.
they have been thinking of coming to our little lsland recently.
hope they come quick.. like before march or something.
i need to study from march onwards.
so this could be a good or bad news...
:(SOB
i am totally going nuts just loading their pics...ARGH!!!
RAINA WHERE ARE YOU WHEN I WANNA CALL YOU UP AND TALK TO YOU?!?!
raina: 'in china'
terrible person..
i have been a good girl
learning korean on my own...
i have so far completed 3 lyrics with korean words and romanised verison in my little popular exercise book:)
yeah, it takes quite long to get both korean words and romanised version together okay..
ohh, romanised is like hanyu ping ying in korean language.. got it?
HA!
i am determined to learn my korean well... so i could communicate with TVXQ at least when they come.. HA!
or even go korean and pple will think i am local.
how nice:)
i have finished reading my begger chinese comic story book.
hope i would be able to remember the story when school reopens.
yeah, we have a test on that.
i dont read books for fun okay.. i always read it cos we are being tested on it.
and i did like 5 maths question today... yeah
dont sound like a lot but still, its an improvement from daydreaming all day and laughing to myself and singing korean and jap TVXQ songs all day long and got no idea what i am singing..
yeah..HA!
lol.
oh, and i complete copying 2 scenes of macbeth today.
i feel so accompliced doing so many things today.
and i did these all from 10 to 1530.
cos i had to go out with my mum to do some paper work..
feel so shuang
HA!
i am such a good girl.
so i deserve to continue looking at my TVXQ!!!
CIAO!
