Saturday, January 31, 2009
posted at 11:14 PM
crap.
i was just reminded about all of them again today.
how i really really still dislike them, or for some, hate them.
its really bad.
i've been prayer for these anger and hurt to be removed for ages.
but i'm always reminded about what they did.
Girls are more emotional, that's true since
Social Psychology taught me that.
well, but that's that a very valid excuse for me to bear those grudges?
No, i have all the excuse to bear that one big grudge, that grudge that many in school knew, the grudge that many stood up for me.
I can still never forgive you.
probably only on the day i feel that my back injury is fully recovered, the day that i feel that i can start exercising and be that lively girl who runs here and there, be that girl who loved sport so much.
you practically just killed half of me, with that push.
you're so amazing selfish.
i hope we'll never ever meet again.
Well, in fact, we were never friends, we never talked.
How i wish you read this post and feel guilty a whole lifetime.
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Sorry, this is Doreen being very evil after 2 ++ years of hate.
But only one can take away all my hurt, my struggles, my anger, my hate, ...
Because He did it out of Love.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
posted at 11:30 PM
i hate ulcers, they suck big time.
and my ulcer just keeps on growing ... damn it.
and i still go put so much heaty fat oily food in my mouth :(
since cny, my mouth have been real real bad.
now, i just like pick up a box of snack and start munching away.
then, keep opening new ones.
then my mum just told me today,
you not scare you eat until you become fat ah?!
okay, its a sign to stop eating cny goodies and start getting rid of cny fats.
and you know what?
i really dont like it when people keep on telling me i lose weight when they see me.
its like, come on man, get an eye check!
its like how my teacher always told me i grew taller when i go for lessons weekly.
then i will always tell her, i'm the same height since primary 6.
" Doreen is dieting again. She's going start living off veggie and water yet again. "
Come on, the only reason why i diet its due to the fact that I CAN'T EXERCISE.
yes, if you havent know, i can't exercise due to medical reasons.
hence, you are highly recommended to not adapt my diet because most of you can at least run on a track mill.
Monday, January 26, 2009
posted at 11:25 PM
i'm relieved.
i just heard from cousin that in secondary schools, they are offering film and media studies as an O level subject.
that means, Singapore needs more media people. That the government is willing to invest money on film and media.
that means, the probability of me getting a decent job in Singapore is not impossible.
which also means, time to reconsider the awesome plans i had for my own future.
but thinking about it again, this is not a good place to grow creativity, to do any thing original, to do anything big.
unless the whole Singapore media do change.
and more entertainment companies start to grow and be rivals of mediacorp.
lol
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hub still refuses to forgive me.made hub mad on like 2 times in this week.this is going to be damn difficult. :(
its like pleasing a wife. haha. irony
Labels: emo
Monday, January 19, 2009
posted at 9:43 AM
Psalm 139 14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.Labels: God
Thursday, January 15, 2009
posted at 11:20 PM
i didnt really take note of recent weather.
until chng told me one day online, 'the weather recently have been great'
from then, i started to take note of the weather everyday.
those who study in Ngee Ann will definitely not miss the big big wind that blows so often in campus.
i really love the weather, its like my idea weather for Singapore.
i felt so shiok when i walk down like 2 busstops until the evening sun and realised that i've not even sweat a bit.
thank God for the awesome weather.
maybe the earth is changing for the better.
maybe God is granting earth good weather and cancel/minus all the global warming :)
thank You.
at last i'm going out to shop with mummy.
its been a long while since i've went out with her ..
since you're talking about 2 busy ladies trying to find a proper day to go on a date :D
Labels: God
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
posted at 9:31 PM
Thanks to everyone who have prayed for me, supported and encouraged me in any way during my hard mugging for Korean test 1.5 months ago.
I thank God for all of your love and concern for me, i thank God for our friendship, i thank God for you!
Its been a long time since i've done well in school.
I remember that day i had location production (film) quiz and korean written and oral.
And i thought i was going to like die for either.
But well, I've scored 80% for film quiz and today, i just received my korean results!! :D
Korean Language
Written: 73/80
Oral: 14/20
Total = 87%
I know oral pulled me down alot, but its my fault too ... :/
but still, really have to thank my heavenly Father for these results!
Thanks again to all friends and loved one who have supported and encouraged me :):)
hope i will do as well for my final sem korean examinations + film examinations :X
Labels: God
Sunday, January 11, 2009
posted at 12:20 AM
i want to invest in heels.
i am super tempted to grab alot of things off River Island and Victoria's Secret - PINK.
bitch, you better tell me when you are buying PINK online yeah.. lol.
but then again, wait till i feel a little richer.
that's why i seriously need a job that pays me at least a thousand per month during my 9 weeks break.
recommendation anyone?
i am NOT LOOKING FOR any F&B jobs.
i'm kinda of picky about my jobs.
maybe that's why i still find one TT_________TT
Saturday, January 10, 2009
posted at 2:18 AM
i just realised something ... a very very sad truth.
i finally understood.
My mum used to tell me you cannot keep every friendship you made in primary school, secondary school, ... all your school friends with you ... all the way till you turn adult.
And, i used to native thinking always made me want to prove to her that i will be one who will do it.
But look what i have today.
I thought i have made a lot of wonderful memories, wonderful friendships in MGS.
How many people actually get to stay in a school for 10 years, get to mix with the same people for 10 whole years of their lives.
I did, but yet, i still feel that i'm losing my friendships.
And, I never blamed myself. I dont want to. Why must i take the blame for a friend running away from me?
Well, that just go to the fact that, I'm boring to be with.
Or rather, i choose to become a boring person.
I realised i talked last, try to get involved less, try to put in less effort, ...
so this is your fate girl, cause you are behaving in this manner.
i thought we could always be friends forever. But, now i can tell you that i'm not sure. I'm not sure if i can tell you now that we'll still be friends 10 years down the road, if i will say Hi to you when i meet you on the streets, if i will even acknowledge having a friend like you.
the girl is fading away from those lives.
well, only suckers cry over spilled milk.
and i am such a sucker.
Labels: emo
Monday, January 5, 2009
posted at 10:29 PM
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Sunday, January 4, 2009
posted at 10:58 PM
I walked super alot today.
its not the shopping kinda of walk.
it was just walking.
well, at least most of it was walking.
first, walked a wasted 500m because we walked the wrong direction
then, we walked for about about 5 bus stop distance.
Icy went her off, and i walked back to HDB Hub, covering another 5 bus stop distance.
Then i decided to walk around whole of Toa Payoh shopping area + HDB Hub in hope to find a pretty wallet.
Decided to walk to the interchange to go home.
Then, Dad called and made me walk a distance of 1 bus stop to meet him.
so in total i walked like 11 busstops + 500m + whole of TP shopping area ..
lol, just thinking 11 bus stops distance is crazy enough.
gosh i should do this often so i can lose some fats, and save some cents.
cos i'm going to attempt to survive on $12 from monday to friday cos i'm broke.
Friday, January 2, 2009
posted at 11:11 AM
gosh, there's something big big wrong with me.
i'm like have this craziness craving for food.
maybe it started with me sleeping on a empty stomach last night :X
i am like telling it all to jo online, telling her i'm like a girl who havent eaten singapore's food for a year. HAHAHA.
DOREEN's Must-Eat-Food List
#1. MG Yong Tau Fu
#2. Satay Bee Hoon
#3. Laksa
#4. MG Malay Stall (<- CHICKEN WINGS AND EGGS AND POTATOES :D) IT CLOSED DOWN T______T
#5. Ban Mian
#6. jo's Mum's Onigiri! (i know jing wants it badly too!)
#7. instant noodles (the only dish i can cook well :)) 02jan's lunch:D
#8. Ikea food (meat balls + chicken wings :))
#9. Chocolate Fondue! (with banana, brownies, strawberries and marshmellows :D)
#10. Korean Black Noodles!! (bukit timah plaza)
#11. Korean BBQ Beef/Chicken!! (toa payoh hdb hub :D)
#12. Buddy's Baked Potato and mushroom soup and pasta! 02jan's dinner:D
#13. NACHOS!!!
okay, call me pig.
but i will control myself!!
haha, i should official put a Must-Eat-List at the side of my blog yeah? HAHAH, then i'll turn pig in '09 :(
okay, i will see what i can eat today :D
posted at 2:01 AM
This is my first post for 2009. This post came late. I was busy with my own little life.
I wrote this yesterday at Kenna's place yesterday. I wanted to write it before the year 2008 ended. So here it is,
Recalling the days in 2008
The craziest ride of emotional roller coaster ever. I can't say that it was a bad year, it was a sad year for me, since to sad seems to fit better than bad. I did alot of thinking throughout the year. About the world, the people around me, loved ones, ... even for myself, my past, my present and future. I started to show more of myself to the world, to the people around me what i really am. I learnt alot about myself this year. For once, i cursed and scolded myself so many times in the year. Oh wells, i hope i'm growing into a better person with all the inner scoldings and mean things i say to myself.
The only thing i'm satisfied and happy about 2008 is the time and effort i have in serving my Lord. He really have blessed me, and its about time i do a little something for Him.
Haha, i thank God for everything and everyone He blessed me with in 2008 :D
lovelove, the only KOREAN-DO ever.
I was thinking of my new year's resolution.
...
which i can't think of anything.
There's more of the I-Must-Do list in 2009.
#1. I must pick up myself from this shit i'm in. All the stupid emotional rides, which happens that i'm always in the dumps.
This is one thing that i want to get out of, but feel weird if i get out of it.
Mummy says that i'm depressed for too long and its not good.
Because she knows that i'm still holding on to that Depression book she bought since the year 2008 started.
Oh wells.
