Tuesday, March 27, 2007
posted at 9:41 AM
DOREEN OFFICIALLY HATES LIFE.i dont know what im living for.
all i know is that i wanna run through my currently life and get out of MGS.
i dont mind being a dropout after Os.
i dont mind studying until Os.
i hate life.
after Os is over, i dont know what i will do with my life..
why are you always taking something nice and good that lightens up my dark lonely life?
you dont even seem to be grateful towards me for 'giving' you that only hope and happiness i have.
you dont seem to be guilty for doing all these towards me.
whats is the reason for all your actions that may seem to be nothing to you?
do you ever realised that im a really sensitive person and how much all these actions mean to me?
i always thot of commit sucide and running away from home before, you know?
you always only see your own trouble and that you are the only one here having problems and unsaid secrets.
how about me??
have you ever thought of me?
have you ever thought that your _______ is living a life that may be worst off than yours now.
do you see my struggles??
now, at least im smart enough that i shouldnt just throw away my life for a person like you.
i will still continue this misery state of me till i see light that allows me to leave this place.
no one cares about me.
what are humans for when they can live alone?
for once i thought, that i may be much happier off if i was all alone.
no one to talk to, no one to hurt me.
just me and my music.
i mean, even when i have a whole load of friends and loved ones out there, no one cares.
and i get hurt for no reason..
so i rather stay alone.
this is not a blog anymore.
its a place for me to talk to myself!
Saturday, March 17, 2007
posted at 2:25 AM
OH MY!
im such an idiot.
okay, cos i am currently stuck on popcorns and pancakes..
i dont know why lar..
then, i was thinking either to buy the pancake mixture or instant popcorn.
i bought instant popcorns cos it would be easier to make anyways..
and pancake still need honey.. so yeah
then i went off to home and started poping the corns.
oh my..
my first packet was like BURNT!!!
in the beginning, everyone in the house was wondering what i was making in the kitchen that smelt so nice..
then after a while, a very strong scent of burnt smell filled the air.
the most retarded thing is, i smelt it and didnt stop the microwave from popping the corns.
after a long lagging, i decided to stop it and when i open the microwave,
a steam of burnt smell kept on coming out and all popcorns turned black..
OH MY!! you will never wanna smell burnt popcorns ever in your life.
its so disgusting.
and now my whole microwave smell bad and burnt :(
HA!
okay, im a loser.
first time in the hols i did so much work..
but i only completed 1/4 of the work i gave myself..
maybe i really did give myself too much work to do..
yeah, sighx.
went lydia's place for her party.
going to vitoria's one later.
wanna read on what happened in lydia's party, go read at jo's blog.
yeah, lazy to post..
no one is going to read it anyway..
not going to post for a while ..
yeah, my blog have been dead for a week..
Monday, March 12, 2007
posted at 8:54 AM
DOREEN IS A .. .. ..
MAY BABYStubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards oppisite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike:being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited.oh my... IT SOUND SUPER LIKE DOREEN SOON!!
AHAHAHA!!
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Stubborn (yes i am !!!)
and hard-hearted.( i dont think so right .. .)
Strong-willed( that is like stubborn lar .. HA!)
and highly motivated.( DEFINATELY!!)
Sharp thoughts. (??)
Easily angered. ( yes!! i start cursing at everything quite easily .. whoops)
Attracts others ( hmm, DUH!! HAHA!)
and loves attention. (maybe i guess .. .)
Deep feelings. ( yes!! dodo have deep p p p feelings ..)
Beautiful physically and mentally.( duh, im MENTALLY ALRIGHT :))
Firm Standpoint. ( isnt it stubborn again?? lol)
Needs no motivation. ( isnt this highly motivated?? LOL!)
Shy towards oppisite sex.( hmm i dont know.. i dont have much guy friends ..)
Easily consoled.(??)
Systematic (left brain).( no... not exactly true.. depends what is it lar..)
Loves to dream.( YESYESYES!! I LOVE TO DREAM ALL DAY LONG!!)
Strong clairvoyance.(??) (what is this?? oh.. i know!! to have good intuition .. hmm. i always thought that im thinking too much.. so its not lar.. ohh, i see !! HA!)
Understanding.(*nods* yes i am!)
Sickness usually in the ear and neck.(hmm, i sprain my neck before.. is that counted??)
Good imagination.(*nods harder* thats why i can and LOVE TO DREAM!!)
Good physical.( yeah, love to exercise but i cant!! :'( )
Weak breathing.( ive got asthma in the past.. counted?)
Loves literature and the arts.( IM TAKING FULL LITERATURE and loves all sorts of arts!!)
Loves traveling. ( DUH.. KOREA!!!)
Dislike:
being at home.(if i have unlimited $$ to spend, i will go out everyday!!)
Restless. ( yes, cos i will become super emo .. :'( )
Not having many children.(??)( what?! means i like many children.. you must be joking ..)
Hardworking.(IM HARDWORKING OKAY!! maybe im forced to.. but, depends what is it again.. )
High spirited. (?? okay....)
--HAHA!!
okay.. now you know me better!!
posted at 8:00 AM
I TELL YOU!!! THIS IS REALLY FREAKY!!
story starts like this!!
after youth service today, i went off for lunch at ICU(inside joke) with baoqi and joyce
then, we were just happily eating and all.
talking away like normal.
then, i started to take note of this group of guys who were sitting on the table diagonally behind us.
i dont know why.. its just their movement that distracted me.
there was this guy, who was facing my direction, asked his friend to move away and dont block his view ( to my table)
his friend shifted his chair and that guy took out his phone and started to take picture of me and joyce.
i was like thinking, what the hell is he trying to do..
so i stared at him with the very annoyed look.
then, he saw me staring at him..
so he quickly look away and pass his phone to all his friends at the table..
-.-''
i mean, i DONT LIKE UNKNOWN PPLE TO TAKE PICTURES OF ME FOR NO GOOD REASON!!
i faster tried to get joyce and baoqi out of that place..
they didnt know why i did that but they just followed.
after when i told them about it,
joyce freaked out totally..
HA!
yeah, you will never know what they will do with the pictures.
joyce wanted me to confront the guys and ask them for their phones..
-.-'' terribly girl, how can you make me the bad girl here??
HA!
yeah, we didnt lar..
what if they already deleted it?!
then will paiseh me..
sighx.
terribly.
oh and when i was taking bus home, i saw a GIRL WHO HAVE FEATURES like WU ZUN!!
its quite freaky you know.
she have quite long hair and her dressing a quite tom boy.. yeah.
i dont know if i posted the other time about seeing a female version of LEE JUN KI!!
yeah, that was totally freaky..
even worse than this female version of wu zun okay..
that Lee Jun Ki girl had the same hair style as him, features and EVERYTHING!!!
even the way they stand and all.
the only differences was that she's a girl and shorter...
im totally freaked out i tell you!
im seeing too many female versions of the male star i like!!
what if i see all the female version of the members in TVXQ?!
i will faint!!
ARH!!
HAHA!
i have such a packed march hols.
i think i will not do anything today and push all my suppose to complete work today to tmr.
BE THANKFUL JOYCE AND BAO!!
i gave you my day okay..
HA!!
Labels: dong bang shin ki, korean
Saturday, March 10, 2007
posted at 11:26 PM
filled with much emotions now.
dont know why im like that.
its just some stuff that i dont even understand by myself
i dont even have the rights to tell anyone about it
cos im not even sure about this heart that belongs to me
who am i?
im such a weirdo.
i need to admit
i wanna write it all out
but i dont know what to right.
maybe what i m experiencing is something like an inner VS exteral comflict on my own.
sighx.
who can help me man..
aiyo, i made such a weird dream yesterday night mann.
i wanna see who it is
but i cant
i can only wake up and guess who it was with my own heart
but sometimes, my head tells me its not him.
what can i do for myself?
for this dying world?
i can type everything i want here..
thats for such.
cos no one will bother anywaysas long as i dont hurt anyone, i will be left along.
o levels are coming.
its really freaky.
i know its like 7 months away.
but still, i cant wait to graduate.
now i dont really know if i still wanna do my chinese studies that badly.
im just desperate to see my future.
i need someone.
i need that someone that will give me that happiness i can feel when i go to bed.
i need that someone who will lend me that shoulder to lean on when i need to cry.
i need that feeling i wanted..
that feeling i had in my dream.
when will it be?
Labels: emo
Friday, March 9, 2007
posted at 8:03 AM
TURF CITY IS SUCH A HOT PLACE TO RUN!!
im so glad i didnt run there though..
was doing pmc duty with jo.
AHHA!
we were just suppose to assist at the starting line ..
like make sure everyone stands behind the line and run..
-.-'' super lame lar!!
AHHA!!
yeah, everyone look they are going to die running.
GIRLFRIEND CAME IN 3RD!!
yeah, really happy for her!!
when i hugged her after she run, it was like OH MY SO SWEATY!!
HAHA!!
raina looked as if she was going to faint after she ran..
trina looked like she was going to vomit..
'___, wo men shi ni de toe hao fans!!"
me and jo would do that when we see someone from our class running pass the ending line..
yeah, from HANA KIMI!!
ha! oh ya, i kicked lettty's butt for crtisicing my wu zun.. HAHA!!
everyone likes him now..
oh, only 13 out of 27 pple from our class came..
it was more than i expected thou..
when i went there, i was like the sixth one there..
yeah, that is how bad it was..
HA!
those pple from 4O who didnt turn up, TERRIBLE FELLOW!!
now in jo's house posting this random post..
yeah, we were suppose to study in do project..
but WE CALLED UP LAOSHI COS WE DIDNT FEEL LIKE DOING THE PROJECT THAT WE WERE SUPPOSE TO HAND IN TMR.
oh my, i really didnt expect lao shi to allow us to hand in only when school reopens after the march hols lar!!
LAO SHI SO NICE:):)
yeah..
she was so cute today at turf city with her yellow shirt.
HAHA!!
yeah, thats all for now..
hmm, oh ya.
i can start like doing jogging and all..
thats what the doctor says..
he says i can do anything i like but not too much phyical in a day..
yeah, so i guess i can go play caps ball in church once again..
(that is if i wanna go all the way down to toa payoh just to play .. :>)
haha!!
okay, thats the final stuff i wanna say here today!!
HANA KIMI!!
6 MORE DAYS TO TVXQ NEW JAP ALBUM, FIVE IN THE BLACK!!
Labels: dong bang shin ki, korean, music
Tuesday, March 6, 2007
posted at 10:48 AM
sighx.
i cant all these anymore.
aiyo, i hate school like crazy i tell you.
i dont know why.
i just made up my mind today.
i really hate school.
to me, school is just a place where i break the rules and make new friends and hopefully, some friendships that will last.
dont talk to me about how we should study cos we are students.
i dont give a freaky damn about that.
honestly, i dont mind being a drop out of school dude.
to tell you, i wanted and talked to my mum about dropping out of school after psle which is primary 6, this is how badly i hate school or rather, teachers.
i got 'suan' but another teacher today.
i know i got the very 'qian bian'/'pai' look..
but, that doesnt mean the teachers can always pick on me right?!
its just that i dont smile i know..
but, i dont wanna go around smiling like an idiot.
maybe i really hate school and teachers so even if i smile, its not natural at all..
today i got 'suan' cos i didnt understand what the freaking the teacher was teaching.
its like, hey im already really weak at Amaths and i dont have any tuition for any subjects so its actually alright if im slower than the rest in class.
mg teachers always think that all mg girls are rich enough for 10 tuition teachers.
hello, even if i was rich enough, why would i need to pay pple to piss me off??
okay, back to how i got 'suan'.
first, i was trying so hard to pay attention in class cos i was almost nodding off.
but, I DID LISTEN.
dont assume that i wasnt listening when i have no expression on my face the whole lesson.then, when it was time to do our assignment during class time, i just merely raised my amaths textbook and asked if anyone wanted to borrow
cos im like the only one who bring all my textbooks to school and im famous for lending all sorts of textbook to the whole class.
then, angie took it from me and teacher was staring at me.
she gave me a 'why aint you going to do your work now?' look.
i knew what she was thinking so i just told her that i dont even understand whatever she said for the past 1h 40 mins, do what work?!?
she asked me what i didnt understand.
"everything."
"what do you mean you dont understand everything? i took so much time to explain and you tell me you dont understand?? what were you doing just now? dreaming?"
"i dont understand everything!"
"okay, then too bad."
im the type that would ask teacher how to do something or would clarify my doubts like immediately.
maybe only phyics..
cos i need to.
if not i will die a terrible death during test.
i just start to see the hope in my amaths cos ive gotten a B3 for common test.
and now, i think im going to flunk it again.
you see, i dont know whats wrong with me but im the person who flunk my subject if the teacher pisses me off and pick on me.
i would just stop listening as hard as i used to if im bring pissed off just once.
yeah.
e.g. chemistry and my amaths teacher last year.
thats why i saw hope in my amaths when we changed teacher this year.
now, i dont know how.
now you know that i bear gudges..yeah
talking about going on diet and all,
IM ON A DIET AND SAVING SPREEM!its not that im trying to follow everyone else and all..
to go on a diet
yeah.
its just that..
to think about it now, maybe im just not confident in myself.
yeah, i guess pple who go for plastic surg. its not because they are really wanna look different, its just that, they do not have self esteem and confidence.
pls dont blame me if i continue my diet till i reach BMI 16/17
yeah.
and pls dont get pissed hearing me saying that im fat.
im really fat..
really.
you would understand what im talking about if you werent in my shoes
i mean, pple when they come across high BMI, they would normally say " i need to grow ___ cm!"
and not, " shit, i need to lose ___ kg!!"
for me its "SHIT I NEED TO LOSE ALL MY FATS NOW!!"
yeah, cos if those who havent taken note or know, i havent grow ever since i was 12.
yeah. i stopped growing for the past 4 years.
i dont think i will grow ever again.
plus i dislocated my tail bone.
when one injuries their back, dont talk about growing taller to them any longer.
cos its impossible.
yeah.
so its not my fault that im a diet.
i just gotta face live that im a total short, fat with the "PAI"/ FULL OF ATTITUDE/ DAO LOOK!
sorry. this is just me.
so, everything branch down to...
DOREEN HATES HERSELF :(
Friday, March 2, 2007
posted at 2:07 PM
Personality Disorder Test Results |
whoops.. IM ANTI SOCIAL:)
HAHA!
okay, i dont know why i enjoy being that something..
for now BYE!
