Saturday, October 14, 2006
posted at 8:45 AM
I AM SO HAPPY
even though my blog cheated on me.
after typing a 1000 word long entry.. it just vanished into thin air...ARGH!
GOONG is such a nice show!!
yep, yet another k-drama recommendation from doreen.
other than korean's, what other things can i recommend??HA!
my computer is SO LAGGY!!
ok, out of point.
I LOVE YUL!!
he is so sweet okay..
if you have totaly no clue what i am talking about, pls go watch goong.
youtube have it all.
or you can tune in to 7pm, channel U, mons to fris..yeah.
HA!korea should so pay me for constantly promoting their singers, songs, culture and shows..HA!
DOREEN LOVES KOREA!!
went out with my kboxers yesterday, lydia,cassie and davina.
met for lunch, went to heeren to take 2 sets of neoprints, cine for kboxing from 2 to 7pm.
yeah, 5hrs.
dont ask me how we did it.
we just sang NON-STOP.
and to think that its my 1st time kboxing.. i am such a loser.
HA!
i mean, my clique dont even kbox.
KBOX HAVE TVXQ and BOA's songs!!
ROCKS!
lydia kept on giving me the weird stares cos i kept on laughing in the mids of singing, so its really weird.
and hitting those freakying low notes with davina is so tough.
singing with lydia just have to keep on singing high.
and cassie just scream and jump on the chairs with me when we sing together.
they all arh, never sing one lor.
always make me sing..
i almost and thought that i was going to have a very bad sore throat cos i couldnt talk properly in the mids of the 5 hrs of kboxingbut i actually was alright after drinking like 1/2 a bottle of green tea..HA!
i am really positive that we are heading back down there soon..
I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
went to get my xray report today.
even though the report didnt come out as bad as i have prepared myself mentally for it(pmc), i am still very pissed over the report.
all the doctor did was, tell me that my back is bent, gave me medication that i doubt will work cos i have been on medication for the past 2 weeks and the pain is still here with me, and 2 weeks of mc from pe which i dont even have to do pe now...diao..
its like, he didnt have to tell me that my back is bent according to the report right..
i knew that for 2 years already... dumb.
and he didnt even and dont even know what is the cause of my 2 week long pain.
I HATE IT!
so i am not exactly happy with the report though i have yet to receive pmc.
i have to go to AH(alexandra hospital) to see a specialist.
and i just hear that if i were to do an operation for my back, rate of being paraylsed is so great.
so, i rather bear with this pain the whole of my life than to just to that operation and get stuck on the bed for the rest of my life...
sighx.. , now i sound so super moody here.
really,
APPRECIATE THINGS AROUND YOU BEFORE THEY VANISHonce it goes, it will never return to you.
drats..
now, all i hope is that, all these bills would not be a killer..
i just realised that i need to go NSC(national skin centre) for my skin problem.
yeah, i am a person with alot of problems.
i dont know what will be next.
my skin and back is like 'stolen' from me.
pls dont steal me voicei will just kill myself immediately..
really.
i cannot think anymore for that to happen.
oh.. and my
friendsi will just land up in IMH..
i am so serious.
sighx..
but i still thank all those we prayed for me, you guys rocks.
THANK YOU FATHER!
but i wanna know why am i having this pain for the past 16 days..
i hope my back would survive the penang trip.
i dont wanna die so earlycrap, why??
always talking about my back make me wanna cry..
oh, i actually cried for my back lots of time and not being able to do pe..
i know to everyone, or to most, getting PMC is the best thing one can get in their whole life.
to just not run those rounds during pe is their biggest dream they could ever have.
but to me, i just wanna be my pe monitress.
i just wanna be like any other normal teen running around the track and do pe..
sighx..
hope everything wil be fine by next year..
i am so glad the lord still allow me to have music to listen to.
TVXQ came at the right time into my life to grab all the sadness away.
is running such a difficult task?
is jumping so difficult to be achieved?
everything is in his hands and i should just follow.
maybe all are set for me to be stronger.
to be the person i wanna be?
to be the person i wanna be for him.
my s dream?
i really wanna give it up for friends, family, love and freedom..
is it worth it?
giving my life to my passion?
only the lord knows, and for me to grow up quick enough to see his wonderful plans for me.
i dont ask for much.
i just want to be able to dance now.
even though dancing may just make everything worse or paralyse me, i still wanna learn.
AT LAST MSNing, havent been there for almost 2 months.
i shouldnt be so moody, emo and all.
im glad there is such a thing as friend, and love between friends.
if not, my world will be nothing.
