Tuesday, November 28, 2006
posted at 12:27 PM
changed a blogskin.
i took dont know how long to get this up..
at least, for once, doreen's blogskin/blog dont look so sad and depressing..
acutally, i dont know.
i just cant find a depressing picture that can suit my mood now..
yeah, HA!
but, my blog dont look as black as in use to.
was very tempted to put the background black..
but yeah, decided not to.
thru this time of getting use to live without the things i have lost..
its really tough, and frustrating.
now when i feel like taking a look at it, its not there and wouldnt be any longer in my whole entire life..
i am just... very unlucky.
yeah, i just suck.
i just need to get over it.
and i dont know if my forgiving act was right.
the point when i was to forgive, i wanted the person to feel my hurt and be dead down guilty and all..
and the next time she sees me, she will be reminded of the incident and be really regretful over her actions.
but, i know that its not right to bring or even push my hurt to someone else.
or drag someone down and feel hurt with me.
thats not right.
since GOD already shown me a life example of the lesson of forgiving and forgetting, i am sure i will be able to do it as well.
yunho's story is one that i would never forget in my whole life.
someone with such a big heart who is willing to forgive others at any cost.
later did i find out that he is a chirstain.
yeah, so i guess its just practising what the bible taught us into our daily lives and showing others that we are different from everyone in this world who havent accepted christ.
he show me how to live life through christ.
so i am sure, i can ask GOD for help to heal me and to help me get over this.
sometimes, its not all about just idolising..
i can say that i dont idolise.
i dont have or make any singer or celebrity my idol and chase them.
its not that way.
for me, i respect a singer, want to be like him, check his background and learn his past.
and then, try to follow and improve myself.
okay, i must admit that i will like go nuts watching them on youtube and spend lots of money on them.
but, i make them more like someone i really admire and wanna be.
