Saturday, November 25, 2006
posted at 7:17 PM
everything is gone.
nothing can make all those things come back every again.
whats done is done.
money cant buy what i lost.
the pain and hurt cannot be healed in one day
all my disspointment, anger, hatred, pain and hurt stays with me
but i choose to forgive.. which i hope will help me get through everything.
i havent posted in a while.
there was something major that happen to me in my life.
but i dont wish to state everything out here.
i dont wish to go through it again.
telling the story makes me see everything again in my head.
all i know is that, i cried my whole heart out that day..
i even cried in my sleep.
how bad can doreen's life get?
all my precious stuff gone in a flash.
i am really dissapointed.. really am.
i was thinking of killing myself that day..really.
it was as if i lost all my friends the very same day i lost everything.
i am not going to say more before i cry again.
went out for dinner with jing and jo.
went to hunt for a job too.
cos my debts are piling up.
imm, the place which we last went out for a GREAT dinner.
so happy that i have 2 more close buddies.
I LOVE JOANNE LIM SO MUCH!
she got me a tvxq album, BoA album and TVXQ's calender from japan!
it was those standing on the table type of calender.
but how i wished she got the hanging on the wall one but.. THANKS JO!
she probably wouldnt be able to read this cos she is ban from the computer for this whole hols..
poor girl:(
i was so thankful that i could at least get out of the house and meet up with them.
its not that i am trapped at home or what so.
its cos, i need someone to cheer me up.
at least not allow me to think of my hurt.
jo and jing's date came at the right time:)
yeah, at least i felt so much lighter after that.
but everything is coming back nowwatched VACATION after that incident happened.
at least it made me a little happier.
though i didnt know was i really happy or just trying to be happy.
i only remembered that everything was so bad that, i thought i was going to be a little mentally unstable during this period of time.
just had a stayover at my friend's place.
this time, it just felt weird.
i dont know.
to me, i havent felt so .. sian, depressed and all.
maybe its the side effect from whatever happen to me on tuesday.
which is that long emo thing i posted about.
yeah, i dont know.
i felt really tired and bored and sad for myself.
sorry pals.
