Monday, December 11, 2006
posted at 2:49 PM
at last done with the children's camp in church.
yeah, super tired and all still.
now, hanging out at my cousin's house..
not exactly going to relax and play to the max here..
i still have never ending homework to complete..
CRAP!
i still have dont know how many maths question to do lor..
plus chinese homework... sighx.
Os is just next year..
its like only 1/2 a year more..
crap. i hate this feeling.
my life feels so empty and all now.
its like, i am just an idiot waiting for time to fly by.
waiting for time to reach 2007..
waiting for the hols to get away..
i dont know..
i know i will hate it once its all over.
but, for this year, just this year, i feel really terrible and very miserable during the end of year hols.. which is now.
i dont know and i cant explain much here.
maybe i just dont wish to make myself clear to all and dont wish to elaborate on it any further..
'DO PRAYER WORK??' i still ask myself that question constantly after that thing is over..
argh, no one to talk everything about to..
i just cant bring myself to talk everything out..
its like, i even find it so difficult to bring it out of my mouth to my mum...
she always seem to have never ending meetings to attend to and too busy to talk.
yeah, she have changed.
i remembered how we use to go out together and just talk about what we feel about things and just hang out together.
just the 2 of us, like sisters.
but now, its seems that we have drifted.
i dont know.
we dont talk so much about ourselves...sighx.
after that incident ..
after that incident ..
nothing in this world seems to be working the right way after that incident ..
i agree and am very proud that i have such a nice and hip mum.
a mum that most female teenagers wish they would have cos its so easy to connect us to her.
she just know the trend and acts like 'another teen'...
yeah.. but, time... the factor here is time.
everything feels so empty and when i sleep alone in my dark big room at night, everything will just come back to me like how i cried the other time on my bed after finding out that everything is gone and time will never turn back.
i will just cry myself to sleep once again..
so now, i hate my room in the night and i cant sleep on that bed in the night any longer.
i hate that place now.
so i guess the day i let everything go and forget the hurt would be the day i would be able to sleep on my own big nice comfy bed with no tears..
yeah.
so, i shall just try to not think so much and.. let GOD continue his plan for me and work in my life.
ha, i have no other choice but to put my faith in him and let everything he planned in my life roll out.
friends .. .. .. HA! no comments.
I WILL MISS JO:(SHE LEFT ME IN THIS SMALL ISLAND ALL BY MYSELF!!!
yeah, she went to thailand:(:( TAKE CARE JO!!
but she was so sweet to call me before she leave..HAHA!
KWOK IS SO SWEET!!!SHE CALLED ME FROM TAIWAN TWICE:):):)!!
yeah, and she is getting me something..
LOVE HER:):)
yeah, i am getting so many oversea calls in this hols..
HA!
so far, FOUR!!
2 from JOANNE LIM from japan
2 from ELIEEN KWOK from taiwan:):)
LOVES:)
