Tuesday, March 27, 2007
posted at 9:41 AM
DOREEN OFFICIALLY HATES LIFE.i dont know what im living for.
all i know is that i wanna run through my currently life and get out of MGS.
i dont mind being a dropout after Os.
i dont mind studying until Os.
i hate life.
after Os is over, i dont know what i will do with my life..
why are you always taking something nice and good that lightens up my dark lonely life?
you dont even seem to be grateful towards me for 'giving' you that only hope and happiness i have.
you dont seem to be guilty for doing all these towards me.
whats is the reason for all your actions that may seem to be nothing to you?
do you ever realised that im a really sensitive person and how much all these actions mean to me?
i always thot of commit sucide and running away from home before, you know?
you always only see your own trouble and that you are the only one here having problems and unsaid secrets.
how about me??
have you ever thought of me?
have you ever thought that your _______ is living a life that may be worst off than yours now.
do you see my struggles??
now, at least im smart enough that i shouldnt just throw away my life for a person like you.
i will still continue this misery state of me till i see light that allows me to leave this place.
no one cares about me.
what are humans for when they can live alone?
for once i thought, that i may be much happier off if i was all alone.
no one to talk to, no one to hurt me.
just me and my music.
i mean, even when i have a whole load of friends and loved ones out there, no one cares.
and i get hurt for no reason..
so i rather stay alone.
this is not a blog anymore.
its a place for me to talk to myself!
