Friday, June 1, 2007
posted at 12:27 PM
(doreen in really low mood today)
aiya, i have been finding things to cheer me up.
but now, im deeper into this hole.
shit.
Cai laoshi, Mdm Lau, one of my dearest laoshi ever have left..
passed away.
i told myself to get over it.
and just tell myself that God want her back home.
but, i cant help but feel like crying everytime i think about her.
i know some of you think its nuts, she is just another teacher.
she is not just another teacher to me.
she is one of the best teacher who have ever taught me.
i remember rachel once told me that she can never imagine her goodfriend pass away.
but now, let me tell you this,
i cant imagine a teacher passing away, one that i admire and look up to.
i know im not suppose to cry though i already did yesterday.
i dont wanna cry infront of her relatives tmr.
yeah, im just too emotional you can say.
i hope everything will be alright tmr when me and trina goes for her wake.
trina, hold me.
sighx,
i just realised how much this teacher is in my heart.
i cant take another blow of such anymore.
even though i would have to in the future.
i really dont want to.
its just part and parcel of life.
thinking about how one person i know survived from a interal bleeding in his lungs, i know there is some good and miracle in this world.
situation: he had a accident and his some ribs broke, one injuring his lungs
my mum told me that he could have easily died.
im so glad that he is pulling through everything and recovering faster than the doctor expected.
Thank God.
for saving another that could have make me cry.
i will be better.
i hope.
by next week? or by the time school reopens?
i dont know.
i have so many unhealed wounds within me that no one knows
and i dont know when will the wounds turn into scars that wouldnt haunt me that much
bleeding. ....
my heart hurts.
