Sunday, August 19, 2007
posted at 5:07 AM
shit,
im really sorry father.
since i wouldnt be attending service tmr.
let me just share my testimony here.
testimony for the lord! :D
i wanna thank the lord for 2 things he have done for me1. o level chinese results = B3- not very fantastic, but i guess that's what i deserve at least.- for showing me that i shouldnt go and take chinese studies. i prayed that if i gotten an A1, it would be clear that he wants me to do chinese studies in ngee ann after i leave mg2. for letting me get into ngee ann's digital visual effects, getting a place where i can spend my first 2 months even before i finish my prelims- surprising that they would want me though i wasnt a art student, though i didnt take art as an o level subject.im really sorry for breaking my promise again.i learnt that i should never make a promise with no confidence of doing it.this thing is making me go mad.stressed out for it.yeah, i promise that i wouldnt do such a promise anymore.cos, its my 2nd time breaking the same promise.okay, im really sorry for my empty promise.i shall stop making empty promises to you, the one who is looking down at me and listening to my crys.i promise, i will serve in pub in ym/church and wamm (worship and music ministry) faithfully after i do my Os.this is my promise to you and im sure that i can and will do it well under your help and guidencei just speak in front of a group of pple im not close to.sorry once againim sorry for breaking your heart again and again.i know you will forgive mebut i feel as if im taking advantage of this love you have for me.i really sorryi know and realised that you have been always there for methere is just too many things that i couldnt see in the pastand come to look at it now,it was only me that wasnt able to see you in my lifeand started to blame you for abandoning mei know its my faultmy un-anwsered prayers and broken promisesi uplift it all to you.you are my everything,i pray that you can take all my burdens, fears and problems away so i can come to know you, serve you, worship you whole heartedly.give me the strength to carry onthis life that you have given me.teach me how to fellowship with my fellow churchmates, fellowship with my fellow brothers-and-sisters-in-christhelp me live a life for you, and not for myself.teach me how to be selfless, how to reach out to this world and people around me.teach me how to stay away from the evil and resist the devil.i want you to live in me and me living under your light.i love you father and i pray thatMAY YOUR WILL BE DONEin my life and everyone'sin this world, your will be done.all christians unite and hid behind the cross of our lord.may we be shining lights of this world :Dsorry, thank you, praise to be unto your name.this is my prayerAMEN