Monday, December 3, 2007
posted at 10:11 AM
i dont know what's up with me mann.
when i found out that i need to work tmr from 12pm to 4pm, i feel this sudden dread in me to go work.
i dont know what's wrong with me suddenly.
when pple ask me how's work and all, i'll just say okay and not anything else.
i dont really like my job actually.
i think going school is so much better.
cos, i too need friends.
and i dont mix with the pple well at coffee bean.
i'm gonna quit :X
after my training?
after i found a job that will pay me at a better rate per hour?
something that will be more fun with friends' company?
i dont know.
it was really a rash decision i made to work there.
sighx, i want my pay badly :S
i dont understand how pple can work at there for almost 2 decades?!
i'm dying even before reaching a month working there.
did i made the right choice in working there in the first place?
now, if i quit, not only wouldnt i get my pay for going for training these 3 weeks, i wouldnt even be able to step into the coffee bean at rail mall.
cos it would feel so awkward.
i dont know who to tell all these to.
joyce told me to quit cos she cannot see her friend getting paid at $4 per hour.
she wants to me to go give flyers at $8.50 per hour.
aiya, i really dont know.
maybe after my training, i'll just take up 2 jobs.
dont know la :SS
you've got to help me, lord +____+
i'm so depressed that i almost cried just now.
i really got no clue in anything im doing now mann.
working there is alright, pple treat me okay.
but i just dont feel the urge to go there anymore.
i wanna talk to my mum about this.
but im afraid that she would scold me for having thoughts like that.
my terrible fate.
my terrible life :X
but this woke me up once again.
this feeling in me.
that is telling me
'doreen, you dont wanna earn so little money when you grown up.
you want to get your dream job, your dream pay
you need to work and study very hard in poly to get what you want.
you know all these are crap that you dont wanna face in the future'
drags..
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