Thursday, April 24, 2008
posted at 3:19 PM
yes, this is how i feel today.
i thought a picture would represent best how im really feeling
i dont know.
thoughts just rushed into my head so suddenly.
(editted on 270408: I chose to take off this part. too bad if you havent read it yet :P HAHA!)
yeah, i really do love sad songs i guess.
i really do okay
but if you make me choose between sad song and happy song?
i guess, i cant choose
cos i love both cos they are music?
haha.
haha, i have been only listening to sad songs just
its just tonight i guess.
its like i'll just skip any fast beat songs that comes along,
and listen to my sad music through the big big head phones you saw me wearing at the above picture, all alone in the living room in the middle of the night.
emo, aint it?
but thats what i am? i guess so
many have said that
and i just had yet another person coming to be just last month saying that 'doreen, i just realised that you're damn emo.'
i unconsciously do release arrows of emo huh.
dont get hit by my emo arrows yeah??
sighx, what's up with the world and me?
yes, i need to agree on this,
this is a totally a doreen problem.
i know not many know about this.
hang on, i think one or two people on this earth knew about it
but, even when i feel like shit now,
like a total loser in everything,
a emo asshole who only dares to sit in the living room, listening to her blasting loud sad songs, tearing her emotions away,
i'm glad i didnt gave up myself 7 years ago.
at least im still surviving now.
imagine if i really had the courage to do it then,
i'll be in total damnation now.
lucky i manage to hear those words.
if you have that sort of courage, you should have enough courage to live on.
think whatever you want about whatever i've got to say today.
i will be better after a good night's rest?
i dont know.
na molla, eotteon-ke?
now, that girl is indeed fading ...
