Friday, June 6, 2008
posted at 12:49 AM
What if i tell you that I've got lots of fears within me?
the fear of losing the people around me, the fear of losing myself to the human world, the fear of humans, the fear of losing my sense of belonging, the fear of water, the fear of having too much fears?
What if i tell you that I've got a lot of hatred in me?
towards my loved ones, myself, those around me, those who never got to know me, those i didnt know well enough?
What if i tell you that I've got loads of weaknesses in me?
being too emotional, having a mind that is always too negative, no self-control, being too physically/emotionally weak.
If I had told you all these, would you still be standing by my side?
Or, would you just pluck me out from your memory and walk away?
To come and think of it, i dont know what made me so sadistic and emotional.
I dont know, how i became so emotional about every single thing.
Where did my smile come from, when i am in front of others?
I'm not surprised if people thought that I had split personality.
I remembered someone telling me that, I'm a totally different person when they read my blog.
They asked if I was alright.
Am i really alright?
EMO IS
NOT TREND.
BEING EMO IS A SICKNESS,
BEING EMOTIONALLY ILL.
