Monday, October 6, 2008
posted at 10:54 PM
LAST DAY OF WORK!at last the end of crazy 2 months of work.
seriously, this is the first time i worked so much in 2 months, this is the first time i worked so hard for 2 months, this is the first time i used my holidays so wisely, this is the first time i think i'm going to miss my job cause i love it!
yeah, i'm having crazy mixed feelings about leaving my 2 month childcare teacher job for school.
i'm so glad that i'm getting a short holiday/rest till next monday at last!
i get to you whatever i really want during the holidays in this week!
but, i'm already missing my kids.
it was so sad when i ended work today, breaking the news officially to the kids that i'm going.
and they want me back to celebrate
christmas with them, i hope i make it happen.
so i can go and give them more presents :)
well, its not that i'm damn loaded with cash or something, i like to see the smiles of those kids :D
i read G's blog today, i cried.
i felt so sad, i dont know why.
well, i felt that i've been a bad friend during this period we didnt meet.
i dont know what exactly happened in her life.
but all i know is, i owe her one big hug.
i'll give it to her when i see her.
sorry for being a bad friend, my dear.
And how can i help Icy?
i dont know, but cant help to see my life in hers.
i see so much of myself in her that, its kinda of scary.
we're not related in anyway, but yet we're so similar.
but, i've always thought, and still think that my life is one of the worst to see.
i dont wish to see all my suffering replay in someone else's life.
i dont wish for someone i love to experience everything i've did.
well, cause its someone i love, that's why i feel the great need to protect.
and she makes me worry so much.
its not her fault i know.
i know how she's feeling now, its too much like mine that i cant do anything but worry.
because her parents and mine are not similar.
and i dont want her future to be like mine.
she ought to live a better life than me.
God, look after Icy and her schooling life.
She needs to make it, and do well next year to be able to do whatever she wants in the future.
God, she needs you.
