Monday, October 20, 2008
posted at 9:49 PM
i remember
Icy told me that i shouldnt get into a relationship now,
cause she didnt want me to go through those crap, those hurt, those sufferings...
but, i'm sort of going through all those everyday though i'm not in any relationship.
we're drifting so much, that i feel that i only know you by your name now.
the worst type of hurt is,
you're hurting and that person dont know,
you're hurting and that person dont know why,
you're hurting and that person dont wanna bother,
you're hurting and that person didnt know it was for him/her,
you're hurting and that person thinks its perfectly alright,
you're hurting so much that the only way to let that person know, is to just die from internal bleeding from the heart.
& i'm experiencing this so much
that i begin to be unable to find the reason to why i'm hurting.
the number of stabs that i've received, my heart would probably be minced up soon.
If even Icy were to leave me now (or even soon), i'll seriously die of internal bleeding and cut off this heart of mine forever.
But i know and trust that Icy wouldnt, because she's also going through all these everyday.
you're still my good friend, my close girlfriend,
but i've became your nobody now.
i mean nothing to you that you feel that everything is perfectly alright.
Leave me here to bleed, and one day when i'm gone for good, you'll realised that everything is not all that perfectly alright.
imagine how much more i will go through if i was to enter a relationship?
how much more times will i get hurt?
how much more impactful and hard will those stabs be?
i need to learn how to be heartless.
Harden this heart of mine, Lord
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emo is definitely not trend.
i dont mind being teased for being emo.
just be sensitive to the feels of others
Labels: emo
