Saturday, January 10, 2009
posted at 2:18 AM
i just realised something ... a very very sad truth.
i finally understood.
My mum used to tell me you cannot keep every friendship you made in primary school, secondary school, ... all your school friends with you ... all the way till you turn adult.
And, i used to native thinking always made me want to prove to her that i will be one who will do it.
But look what i have today.
I thought i have made a lot of wonderful memories, wonderful friendships in MGS.
How many people actually get to stay in a school for 10 years, get to mix with the same people for 10 whole years of their lives.
I did, but yet, i still feel that i'm losing my friendships.
And, I never blamed myself. I dont want to. Why must i take the blame for a friend running away from me?
Well, that just go to the fact that, I'm boring to be with.
Or rather, i choose to become a boring person.
I realised i talked last, try to get involved less, try to put in less effort, ...
so this is your fate girl, cause you are behaving in this manner.
i thought we could always be friends forever. But, now i can tell you that i'm not sure. I'm not sure if i can tell you now that we'll still be friends 10 years down the road, if i will say Hi to you when i meet you on the streets, if i will even acknowledge having a friend like you.
the girl is fading away from those lives.
well, only suckers cry over spilled milk.
and i am such a sucker.
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