Thursday, April 23, 2009
posted at 11:06 PM
for once in my whole entire life, i learnt what lonely is.
I went for korean lessons today, i was back to that self, who sits in the first row in class, all alone.
I was one of the first to be there, and everyone who enters the class quickly finds a sit beside someone they know. And i look around feeling weird, like a total outcast.
"Why does it feels like its totally different in this class when most of my class mates are the same? Everything is the same other than the change in korean teacher and venue of class.."
And i realised, the teacher was the only friend i had. And now that Ms. Han is not teaching me anymore (+ my only friend i made 1/2 through korean lesson last sem was Annie and she is not taking korean this sem). oh wells. i got to understand what jolene meant be really feeling lonely .. to me, so much till the extent that i wanna cry, because this sem's korean (aka korean 102) is very stressful. :( dont feel like going for class next week. but after i talked to mum about korean 102 being difficult, she said "How can you so easily give up on something because its difficult? Running away from the difficult will not do any good to yourself? If you dont go pass this difficulty and study korean, how to be Mrs. Kim?"
Okay, so it was more for being future Mrs. Kim that she wants me to continue studying korean huh. Funny Mummy. But she indirectly gave me that drive to want to continue to choing for my korean. She reminded me the reason why i wanted to take up this language in the first place, because
i wanted to go to korea.
Be it to work, to study or to just soak in a different culture for 3 months, 6 months or even a year. Thanks Mum, i know you dont know how much that meant to me though its like indirectly 'selling' your daughter off to Mr. Kim.
On a happier note,
HAPPY BELATED 1month+9days birthday to DONALD :)
i know this is a very lousy photo from my currently very lousy phonehaha, yeah. that's his birthday present AT LAST! i think it looks better for a mac leh, like more class and all. Well, since its a mac pro + donald have 'grown' older, he should get not so childish stuff anymore! But younger sis and er-ge (david) thought the previous one was nicer. so its up to you. haha.
you know how 1 dog year = 7 human years? (means when a dog turns 1 years old after 365days, he is equivalent to 7 year old human) yeah, so for laptops, i made one out. hope it will make sense!
0 years old = Baby
1 years old = Toodler
2 years old = Child
3 years old = Teenager
4 years old = Adult
5 years old = Middle Aged
6 years old = Old Adult (in Donald's case old man)
I hope Donald don't die soon. At least, an Old Man :( Seriously, i think i am the only human on earth that thinks so much about my laptop (a macbook pro for my case), name it, changes his sticker name, buys it present and even doing this human to donald age chart thing. haha
Labels: donald, emo, korean, photos
