Wednesday, April 29, 2009
posted at 10:10 PM
I really feel like ranting so much to her, but she's not online T-T.
"why is she not online out of all times?! :(" - okay, i did sound half mad and disappointed in my head. maybe its those family matters that's why she's not online, or prolly asleep which i'm glad.
why didnt she kill me when i was just born? she should have just
straggle me to death like how Lady Macbeth might kill her own newborn child if she had one. at least i wouldnt need to be tortured on earth.
Oh wells, really.
Sometimes when i look back at them, i really feel the urge to work super hard in the future to earn alot of money in the future.
I dont want to be like her. I want to be able to provide my children whatever they need, whatever they want, whatever service they need. I don't mind spoiling them even if their teachers might lecture them in class for being too spoilt, cos i'll just make sure the teacher get a good complain from me. oh well, i want to protect and provide for them. Much more than she can. Cause though we all know that mums are great, but i want to be a better mom than she is.
And i will teach my kids well, tell them what respect and manners is all about. Though i will protect and provide for them, but i will make sure i wack and scold them if they ever dare to be lacking in respect and manners for anyone, especially those older. Seriously, the new generation of children are just the terror of this world cos their parents just don't control them enough. I will make sure my kids dont turn like that.
She better start regarding me as a older sister, cos i totally feel like disowning her already. She will become the big reason why i leave this home.
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