Saturday, July 18, 2009
posted at 12:53 AM
i really dont know how to feel and react towards you anymore.
i rather not feel anything than to go through everything now, really.
it would have been much better if we both just remained as strangers.
cause to me, right now, it's a torture knowing you.
i don't know how long will this torture will last, or will it never end, or will it eventually kill me.
i feel the bomb within me is ticking away, it will explode sooner or later, and i don't care how much this bomb will hurt you anymore.
i don't care any longer, because you're not worth it, till the extend that i might just slap myself if i cry over such a reason.
to Heng: I'm sorry for me being like myself always. I always feel bad that i can't be there for you like how you are always there for me. just drop me a msg or call me or whatever it is, tell me when you are happy, sad, angry .. or just feel like being random yeah? I will be here :)
please just go and open a winery, it works better that way.
sorry if you think that i've changed, in fact, you've just begin to start seeing my other side.
you're the first, that i am prepared to break everything.
i'm sorry, and don't expect you to forgive me forever.
whatever, i should stop feeling if i dont know how to feel anymore.
Labels: emo
